<h4>Third Date Nerves</h4>

My brain is doing weird things.

I've got this guy that I'm starting to date. I like him. I know that I like him when I'm around him because I'm enjoying myself. As soon as I'm around him, my body wants to touch him. I don't even think about it, I just want to be near him. After we part, I'm smiling big and bright. I'm glowing. I am excited.

A few days go by of fine-ness. I'm generally excited about having another date. I can gush about him to people who haven't heard. I imagine what will happen next, have trouble sleeping at night because of it. Then it comes down to the time before I see him again and I get nervous. I'm nervous now before our third date. I'm afraid I may not like him. What if I see him and realize I actually don't like him?

Is this a fear of rebounding? I don't know him. I went from being with someone I KNOW, being comfortable, knowing what to expect, being in love with someone fully to this. This is new and scary and fresh and totally in the scales. I may decide after tonight that I'm not attracted to him. I may decide that even though he's got all these things going for him that I think I want, I don't actually want him. I'm afraid of deciding that. I'm afraid of being wrong. Again.

I am also like this with all the guys I get to know. There's a weirdness for me getting to know a man. It takes a while for me to decide how I feel about someone, and especially to develop a strong attraction that I can trust. I have to make up my mind.

I think I'm sort of normal.