Thursday, July 15

Ridiculous Profile of the Week

He is a Lone Wolf.

I have always considered myself something of a Lone Wolf, shy: reluctant to approach others, trust issues by conditioning, wandering: hunting and traveling alone, starving: must find food without help, sometimes having to scavenge, misunderstood: a minority that may be perceived as rabid or sick as most run in packs, aggressive and defensive: as necessary when being alone and fending for one's self. I share all of these qualities with this animal, so I find this comparison to be most appropriate. Honestly, since I was in kindergarten my only dreams and aspirations, haven't been asking too much, at least I don't think so. Most people's dreams, from what I could see have always seemed to me, somewhat materialistic. All I ever wanted in life was companionship, or someone with eyes that could calm the beast inside of me, someone understanding, that gives me something to strive for. However, because of the conditioning of my environment, my life is something more of what I refer to as "shattered dreams and a living nightmare" also being quite shy when approaching strangers whom I might be attracted to, and regardless of every cliche, slogan, catchphrase and empty promise, I remain the Lone Wolf, in what seems to be a never ending vicious cycle. I become envious of others, who have what I have always wanted, but even more when they take advantage, this brings out the beast inside me even more, but still nothing to calm it down, and so my "animality" continues to prevail as the Lone Wolf, and so I howl at the proverbial moon waiting for a response, but still nothing.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm frightened. Jess N.

Allison said...

And that's exactly why I posted this profile. It's too frightening to read on my own... "brings out the beast inside of me" AHHH!