I have noticed that I am back to eying up every potential guy within my field of vision, i.e. every guy within my age bracket who looks mannish. At the very least, this means I'm back to monitoring my options and thus open to new men. Which leads me to ramble on the keyboard about how shitty being alone is after being with someone.
Break-ups are just a heap of shit. I don't really feel like doing another one. Thanks. There I am thinking I've got my feelings under wraps--I'm gonna do better! This is the right thing for me! Just wait till I meet someone who wants this as much as me--and then there I am with tears on my face in the car on my drive home from work. It's not even like I'm trying to think about him (at first--then obviously I'm just torturing myself).
A good friend told me that even though someone can be good, good is the opposite of best. I'm not exactly sure how that computes but I'm with her on the general gist of it. He was good. But the more space I have from him, the more clearly I can see that there were things missing. I am ready for a relationship--my best relationship... I think.
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