<h4>Another Part of the Rollercoaster</h4>

You know when you have a history with someone? And you think you're over it? But it doesn't really matter if you think you are or not because really you're not. And you'll probably never be really all the way over it. But then you find out he/she's in a relationship. It stops you right in your tracks and you realize how much you miss having him/her around. Suddenly you're really sad because you remember how you felt back then when he/she was a constant in your life. And now that he/she's with someone else you wonder why you weren't good enough to still have him/her. Maybe you wonder what this new person has that you don't, or how you could've wasted so much time with someone who didn't want you after all. But why does this new person--this fresh, clean, normal, bright looking person--get something legitimate and real and honest from him/her when you ended up with nothing? Was there value in what you had? What did you have? Then not only are you nostalgic and sad and jealous but you end up feeling a little bit worthless, too.